I promised myself that I wouldn't blog solely about being pregnant now that my body's creating a human, but today's entry simply cannot be avoided.
My sleep habits have always involved heavy sleep, lots of it, and vivid dreams. Not necessarily waking dreams, where you're awakened and feel like you're still in the dream, but I nearly ALWAYS remember the dreams that I have, and in extreme detail. Two days a week, my entire life, I've remembered my dreams in great detail.
If you have these types of dreaming behaviors, and plan on becoming pregnant,
watch the F out.
My dreams have gone from vivid and twice a week to
TOTALLY CRAZYPANTS and every night.
I used to keep a dream journal, and I keep toying with the idea of beginning it once again, but it takes a lot for me to turn the light on, grab my journal, and spend time writing (
rather than just going back to sleep, which I am also, thankfully, able to do.)
Some of my dreams I have unfortunately forgotten, but the most recent I'm certain I will
never forget. I'll try to list the dreams I remember having since I've been pregnant, ending with the most unforgettable (some of them are icky
and a little dark and twisty, so be prepared):
In 90% of my preggo dreams someone from my past has been involved. Most often it's been someone from elementary/middle/high school who I haven't talked to in a million years.
During one dream, I attended the rehearsal dinner of someone who I considered a close friend (who, in reality, I've known since 4th grade but have never been true friends with) and proceeded to get into a fight with her, involving the classiest hair-pulling episode you can imagine.
This person was one of the wealthiest I've ever met, so, apparently, (in my dreams) even cat fights are classy when you're loaded.
There was a dream in which I was pushing a toddler-aged boy around in a grocery cart, and he wouldn't stop throwing up all over himself.
EW.
I've had dreams about two of my ex-boyfriends.
Nothing too exciting, don't get crazy. In one I congratulated him on his new baby. And in the other we were walking around the mall.
so random.
In one dream I had some
very g-rated lady-on-lady make out time with one of my girlfriends.
Never had a g-rated lady-on-lady make out sesh, nor have I wanted to, which makes this one especially perplexing.
I've had two dreams about one of Davo's ex-girlfriends.
In one of them we were besties, and in the other I was wierdly jealous of her.
At some point I dreamt that I was in a group volunteering on the Gaza strip, and we were walking through the streets of one side
I don't remember which when the other decided to bomb us. As we ran out of the danger zone, I passed the wall dividing the two enemy sides, and to my left was a field full of small, round bombs. The road on which I was running was thick with mud, and I couldn't run fast enough to get away. As I stood there, stuck in the mud, all of the tiny bombs started lighting up, indicating their imminent detonation.
I awoke just before I was blown into tiny bits.
I had a dream that I was surrounded by people telling me I was beautiful.
Please see the previous post about how UNsexy I feel these days in order to understand this one.
A while back I dreamt that I was in my high school
(not my reality high school, but my dream high school), and Davo and I were wandering around, trying to find a room where we could make out.
We never got caught, but never accomplished our goal.
AND, last but not least, my most recent and least forgettable dream:
I was in some mansion with all white walls, and I could jump and fly around as needed. I was being chased by the goblin from The Descent (
awesome, disgusting, scary-ass B-movie from 2006) and, if you've seen the movie, you know that these goblins are blind
(naturally.) So, as it chased me, I was repeatedly able to scoot away without being seen. I was finally trapped by the white, slimy creature, and as he pinned me down he breathed "
THE MONSTER EATS WHAT THE MONSTER MEETS" into my face and his spirit entered my mouth. As this happened, I felt an intense quiver all over my body and woke up.
what. the. eff.
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Yep. That's the one.
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So, there you have it. A very brief summation of some of the crazy person dreams I've had since being pregnant.
One of my friends reports that her daughter came to her in a dream; some beautiful, etherial representation of the child she would soon meet.
Others speak of dreaming about the birth of their babies.
I dream of goblins and lesbian make-out sessions.
Anyone care to interpret?
Does the goblin represent my baby, who has invaded my body so that it no longer feels like my own?
Why is the lil' dude puking in the grocery cart??
What the HELL is the Gaza strip dream all about?!
Do ANY of these dreams mean anything, or are they simply the results of the crazy hormoines pulsing through my body?
As I type up all of these dreams, part of me cringes at the idea of revealing something so vulnerable about myself for all the world to read.
But then, I often wish we would all be so exposed. I believe it brings us closer together, and hopefully makes some of us feel a little less crazypants.
...unless I'm the only pregnant person who ever has crazy dreams similar to these. In which case, I just feel more crazypants.
To be serious, every time I wake up from one of these dreams I feel a little anxious, wondering why my psyche is able/feels the need to create such intense fantasies.
I'm at an exceptionally happy place in my life, so it seems that my dreams should reflect those emotions, doesn't it?
I do admit that I haven't loved being pregnant so far.
It hasn't been the easiest road for me. BUT, I haven't lost sight of the excitement and wonder of what is to come, and it surely hasn't taken away from my happiness. It's done quite the opposite; I appreciate my job more, Davo and I are communicating better than ever, and I daydream about what our little is going to look like every day. I wonder what the munchkin will sound like, whose eyes they'll have, and what they will love.
Until next time.... I'll continue to dream, hopefully they'll get lighter and fluffier, and if anyone out there has similar dream experiences to share I'm
ready to hear all about them.
Word of the day: crazypants. Use it in a sentence today or tomorrow. You'll like it, I promise.
love to you. and you. and you.